Unfortunate Soul

September 21, 2012

Let me share something with you that God is showing me.  Now I have to admit, it’s a little deeper than anything shared in the past but here we are together. Me feeling reflective, humbled, and empowered by God. You feeling curious, receptive, and hopeful.

I have always been an emo kid, an aura I have emitted since I was a young teenager. Fortunately, others have translated it to be humility, which makes me look better. But the truth is I am an emotionally wounded, insecure person. And I basked in the glow of my wounds for many years. That’s what makes an emo kid tick.

Well. This is what God is teaching me. Even insecure people can be used by God. It’s hard to feel like you are good at anything when you do not possess confidence in anything. But God does not want us to be insecure. He wants us to boast in Him.

This applies to me as a student of yoga and as a teacher. When I enter the classroom, I am now confident. I have worked hard to know and do the things I know and do and I feel God blesses each practice.

He won’t let me ruin his plans with my own insecurities and that makes Him so cool in my book.

There is a beautiful in-between-space of awareness when you know yourself to be who the insecurities think you to be but allow yourself to be the confidence you take by faith from God.

Has anyone else struggled with insecurities? Think about it. Where do you get your confidence?

 

2 responses to Unfortunate Soul

  1. I also am a basically insecure person, but because God is working in my life He helps me to gain confidence. God can use us even better when we are weak, because “when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Cor. 9,10.
    God can work in our lives and use us in His kingdom better when we recognize our weakness and His strength. We must be attached to Jesus,
    who said “Apart from me you can do nothing” John 15:5
    Thank God He has made each one of us special and loves us so much!

    • Our verse this week was Jeremiah 33:3 “Call to me and I will answer. I will tell you of great and mighty things which you do not know.”