The Heart Behind the Yogi

April 25, 2015

Clock fleur de lisOftentimes when I prepare a class, there is an even mix of strategic planning and spontaneous spiritual leading. Recently I shared a verse from Psalm with my class and I admitted it was something that was on my heart but I didn’t explain why. Now I want to take the opportunity to open a door for you, into the heart behind the yogi.

Psalm 130:6 “My soul waits for the Lord. My soul does wait. And in His Word do I hope. I will wait upon the Lord, my soul does wait, more than watchmen wait for the morning.”

Why is it so hard for us to share our personal pains and struggles with others?

I am reading a biography about Indra Devi right now. The woman who helped bring yoga to the West. And one thing that stood out to me was the philosophy of love and unattachment that fueled her life. She was the personality that could never stay in one place very long or with one person very long. She loved deeply, I am sure, but at arms length. How convenient.

Seth and I have always planned to adopt and in my most selfless moments I am at peace with planning to adopt all of my children. But I have also been actively seeking a pregnancy too for a year now and looking back I don’t know how I have managed to pick myself up every month and let myself be vulnerable to the possibility of conception over and over again. It is a rollercoaster of emotions that is both exhausting and relentless.  At this point in my life I feel like adoption is complicated and expensive and conception is impossible. So I will wait and in His Word will I hope. At least one, maybe both options will become reality eventually.

So my question now to you is this: Is there something in your life on which you are waiting for God? What promises in His Word do you put your hope in, that makes it easier?


One response to The Heart Behind the Yogi

  1. I loved your blog post Bethany. You are such an inspiration to me. It is so hard to wait for the better plan the Lord has for us. Keep strong beautiful sister. Your baby is going tobe worth the wait. Love you.